Communication is a funny thing.
We never say the things we mean to.
And we sometimes dont mean the things we say.
And then there are the times where we mean what we say,
and yet people dont know what we mean.
And communicating upset feelings is the worst of it all.
I never imagined myself to be a person that sucks at communication.
I mean, we do it all the time right?
We girls talk and talk and talk.
And I am pretty sure people get what I am trying to say most of the time.
But I never had to really talk about being upset.
Whining and bitching and complaining aside,
ever tried talking about something that bugs you, to the person that bugged you?
It's freaking hard.
There's the pain that comes from what has been done.
There's the confusion that comes from how this person can be so different from you.
There's the anger that comes from wondering why the person did it.
And then there's the pride of not wanting to admit how something or someone can get to you so much.
And I can't deal with all these emotions and try to communicate them at the same time.
So I linger between being hostile and simply not saying anything at all.
Both of which don't really get me anything or anywhere.
Except more upset feelings and the cycle continues.
So weary.