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Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Hyped Up 3:53 PM

Getting quite excited about the recce. holdiay song for the holiday trip! oops.. I mean working trip...

I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
See what there is to see
Time is just a melody
With all the people in the streets
Walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roll through town
And though my window's got a view
Well the frame I'm looking through
Seems to have no concern for now so for now I

I need this old train to breakdown
Oh, please just let me please breakdown

Well this engine screams out loud
Centipede gonna crawl westbound
So I don't even make a sound
Cause it's gonna sting me when leave this town
And the people in the streets
That I'll never get to meet
If these tracks don't bend somehow
And I got no time that I got to get
To where I don't need to be so I

I need this old train to breakdown
Oh, please just let me please breakdown
I need this old train to breakdown
Oh, please just let me please breakdown

I want to break on down
But I can't stop now
Let me break on down

But you can't stop nothing if you got no control
Of the thoughts in your mind that you kept and you know
You don't know nothing but you don't need to know
The wisdom's in the trees not the glass windows
You can't stop wishing if you don't let go
The things that you find and you lose and you know
You keep on rolling, put the moment on hold
The frame's too bright, so put the blinds down low

I need this old train to breakdown
Oh, please just let me please breakdown
I need this old train to breakdown
Oh, please just let me please breakdown

I want to break on down
But I can't stop now


Jack Johnson - Breakdown
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z50ZveXL-Ps

No act of kindness no matter how small, is ever wasted.
-Aesop


From RAG to Lyrics 11:04 AM

stayed back till almost 1am this morning to finish the lorry cab for RAG. it is finally more or less done!! :))) seeing some of the buildings finally getting mounted on the lorry made me see that the time spent all this while was more or less worth it. pity not many people will see it though. why is RAG on friday!!! argh... I am totally going to plaster my blog with pictures of the float... I hope I wont be too lazy when the time comes...

random point: bitching sessions somehow always bond people together.

I am leaving for Cambodia in less than 24 hours!!




and I am going to miss Singfest cause of that. damn it... when I first bought the tix I was seriously mentally kicking myself on why did I spend like $200 on a concert tix!! but now seeing all the advertisements and rar-rar on Singfest, I am kicking myself on why I cant go!! and kicking myself on WHY the tix are like $50 cheaper!(!) and kicking myself on WHY I somehow managed to find out that the singers will be performing FULL concert sets rather than just a few songs. (maybe the weird random bruises on me are not from RAG... hmmm)


these simple words say so little yet so much.

Just need to get closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now, closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now.

Travis - Closer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u2hYn_4yuhc

If you don' try, you can never fail.

Gossip is the art of saying nothing in such a way that leaves practically nothing unsaid.
- Walter Winchell


Thursday, July 24, 2008
the tragic or the humorous is a matter of perspective 9:27 PM

I was having one of THOSE days. Those bleargh days where nothing is going right and you feel like you can never be happy again. Everyone get those days right?

I was all set to whine and bitch here but I saw something that changed my mind. On my way home, I saw police cars and ambulances around this block and realised someone had committed suicide.

Call me sadist or what. But I felt better. Cause suddenly, my day wasnt as bad as it seemed. My troubles were insignificant compared to many others. Suddenly, my day didnt seem to matter.



Bette Midler - Wind Beneath My Wings
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=El-C3w4CYqo


Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.


Monday, July 21, 2008
Madness is like gravity 10:58 PM

*irritated by people who make sai gang more painful than it already is*

Heath Ledger is amazing as the Joker in Dark Knight. Comparable to Johnny Depp's Jack Sparrow. And that's saying a lot coming from me. Now I fully mourn for our loss.

Jay Sean - Maybe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hNYxuZHhmEM

I believe whatever doesn't kill you simply makes you... stranger.
- Heath Ledger as The Joker


Thursday, July 17, 2008
Round is A Shape 11:11 PM

realised my last post was kind of blabberish and doesnt make much sense... shall bring my thoughts to order.



my first aid course has finally ended!! after 3 days of S....L....O.....W.... teaching.. they just anyhow let people pass also... so many certified but unqualified first aiders out there!! I swear they are more of a threat than anything.. haha!

Threat #1: Risk having CPR done on you when your heart is still beating.

Threat #2: Risk having your broken limbs get even more banged up.

I guess these threats are bad enough as it is..

really gonna miss the colourful characters I have been learning first aid with the past few days...

Leong Seng aka blur king: this guy is... as the instructor describe.. groggy. he is like damn lost all the time... the communication breakdown between him and the instructor is really pro.. never have I seen/hear so much information being lost and misinterpreted in the span of 3 days and when a common language is being spoken.

Susie aka hiao char bo: it was hate at first sight. she was one of those rather direct and outspoken people who wont care less of what others would think/feel as a result of something she said... but she turns out to be rather nice... and she loves taking pictures. maybe she has a blog or something.. the way she lifted her leg damn high to take a picture of her knee bandage... she really provides entertainment for the class.. and her tattoos look cool! never got down to asking her how much they cost..

Bai mei lao jiao (damn.. forgot his real name!): his eyebrows are lengendary.. and he keep asking us not to knee down in front of him (we were doing CPR..) cause he is not dua bei gong. haha! damn cute..

Dancers: there's 2 dancers in our class that look kind of out of shape.. cant imagine them doing ballroom dancing... eeyer...

the other people are pretty nice and kept mostly to themselves...

a redundant update:





I PASSED MY FIRST AID TEST! :)

Death Cab for Cutie - I Will Possess Your Heart
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pq-yP7mb8UE
(this is apparently a stalker-ish song)

I am in shape. Round is also a shape.
-Some Perfect 10 radio DJ


Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Bleedings, Fractures and Heart Attack 10:24 PM

Just remembered something else to add on to the previous entry (keep forgetting what I wanted to add)..

Coldest Room (in NUS and probably the Singapore): NUS BLK ADM Chatterbox. I swear the temperature dropped to around 10 degrees in the middle of the night. one of the glass doors were open and the other door still managed to frost!! ultimate. I woke up and kept shivering for the next hour or so. thought i was going into hypothermia. in spore!

Most Hated Person: Murphy. damn those laws!!


that's beside the point. noone gt bleeding, fractures or heart attack during WAFF.. those first aiders on duty look too free!!

I digress.

Just went for a 3 day first aid course at St John HQ. it was not so nostalgic being back in that old building.. though I cant say there were not much memory there... afterall, it was the place where we broke down after losing zone com, where we broke down after seeing the team we trained until want to die win the zone com and the place where we first learnt first aid and homenursing, no matter how terribly it was taught.. the gruelling trainings in school and strong instill of discipline were what made me the person I am and I am thankful for that. and returning to SJ to take a first aid course made me realised how amazing those 4 years of trainings I had were.. to the extent where I can still remember the signs and symptoms of illnesses and how to do CPR and tie bandanges. its not something people can claim to do after a 3 day course, no matter how hard they practice or study. the things I do are mostly based on muscle memory that I didnt realised how much details can go into a CPR process until I was practising with my fellow coursemates. I saw the mistakes they made, the very mistakes I did not make due to 4 years of drilling and practising. and helping these people correct their mistakes reminded me of how it felt to train a team from scratch, to turn lost, confused sec 1 cadets into well oiled machines at sec 4. and I feel like doing it again!! training people first aid!! think I can work in SJ after retirement... its already an old folks' club there.. everyone moves so slowly!!


and being totally random again, I just watched Red Cliff with yan and vaness. seriously ANTI CLIMAX. shall not reveal anymore. shall put everyone through the torture I was put through. noone bothered to tell us the show is soooo ... you know.... shall not reveal. hahah. go watch it!! its a nice show!! except for the.... you know.. argh... cant say anything without revealing anything. haha. recommended!!'

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
-Confucius

Westlife - Angel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hoN3MQmdQ2E


Monday, July 14, 2008
WAFF A Experience! 4:36 PM

One year of planning.

9 hours of carnival.

22 stalls.

Most Classic: followed Mik's dad's car thinking it was Mik and ended up following his dad to send Mik's gf home when we were supposed to go back to NUS. and Mik's dad and gf didnt realised we were behind them all the time. What else can I say? Classic.

Most Ridiculous: Digging up sand (wet!) with Junwen from the long jump pit at NUS at 1+ am to use in our games stall. Like what I told Junwen, I will be freaked out if I were a passerby and happened to see the both of us doing what we did.

Most Successful Crash Diet: Eating 2 hotdog buns and 4 satay for the entire day and moving hundreds of coke cans off a lorry.

Most Lang Bei: No time to wear contacts, comb hair, change into new set of clothes and running around the carnival like some mad woman.

Most Shag: Trying to find 1000 over prizes in a ulu shop and carry all to Ervin's van and packing the prizes at the back of his van while some horrible drum fest was going on at Youth Park. Ma jiam doing sai gang at a club..

Most Inconceivable: I have NO idea how people can just come and go anytime they want to during preparation and clear-up. The mentality that "someone will do it"? I am always the someone.

Most Detrimental to My Civility: Hanging out with guys who spew f-words like they were miracles. I swear I am starting to swear a lot more.

cant think of anymore at the moment. slept for 11 hours straight since the carnival ended but I am tired. again. zzz. and junwen keep telling me this is not as bad as RAG will soon be. (!!!)

The only things in life you regret are the risks that you didnt take.

Life isn't easy, but no one said its hard

Natasha Bedingfield - Pocketful of Sunshine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2XcqKaXDIY


Sunday, July 13, 2008
zzzz 3:28 AM

It's now 13th July 2008, 3.28 am. WAFF is about 7 plus hours away. I am still awake doing crap work.

I want to sleep. =(


Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Ooh, these feet carry me far. Oh, my body. Oh so tired. 12:48 AM

I have like tonnes of things to do but smartly went to give myself a short break and now my momentum is toally gone and I cant force myself to work again.

tonnes of simple things became so complicated today.


1. Register for St John first aid course online

  • online server for registration was down
  • vincent had to sign the registration form!
  • I had to go down to the HQ to pay the fees

2. Renew passport

  • I had to get the new biomatric one which I can only get in a week or so instead of just getting a "renewed" chop as promised on the website!!
  • the stupid helpline was engaged and I had to go down to ICA to discover the above mentioned unpleasant surprise
  • the queues in ICA are a nightmare. not because they were long but because no one knew where to queue for what!! I was asking people and people were asking me. a serious case of blind leading the blind. I went in circles looking for a queue ticket machine only to hear a man going "where to get queue ticket!! so messy!!" seriously. chaotic.
  • and there is this completely ridiculous practice where you pay $10 lesser if you were to submit your passport application form via this deposit box instead of doing it at the counter. I didnt queue up just to listen to someone tell me how to save $10. does it seriously cost the people at the counter $10 just to process the form! not as if anything is becoming more efficient in the process..

3. Do RAG

  • I need the lorry dimensions!! what was that Murphy's law again? oh ya.. "Whenever you set out to do something, something else must be done first". wonderful

4. Get lorry dimensions

  • the STUPID IRRITATING lorry person refuses to let us see his lorry!!! call and call and call.. everytime he will go "I'll call you later" and HE DOESNT. %&@!#
  • so we had to call every stupid lorry rental company in Singapore
  • so we had to go online to look for the companies
  • so we had to move from KFC to Mac cause KFC doesnt have wirelss@sg
  • so Joel called and called... from companies in the west to north to central and either they did not have a 14 foot long lorry or it's already rented out or noone picked up
  • so we resorted to looking in the east and FOUND ONE at Joo Chiat Road!
  • and Mac has no power socket and my laptop died after a while so we didnt know where exactly the company was!
  • so we called the STUPID IRRITATING lorry person and guess what?? he said "call you later" ARGH. words fail me when I think of him
  • so we left for Joo Chiat
  • and we cant find the correct bus
  • and when we did, we overshoot our stop
  • and we had to walk from like 1 Joo Chiat Road to 363 Joo Chiat Road to reach the company
  • and the lorry was damn ex!!
  • and the lorry wasnt even at the shop
  • so we had to sit some lorry to this carpark at Fort Road to measure the lorry
  • and then sit the lorry back to Joo Chiat and walk to parkway to take bus home

random point: took bus 12 home from katong area. it felt so weird to reach home in less than an hour via public transport!

now I know why I feel so damn tired.

Sam Sparro - Black and Gold
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHuebHTD-lY

Lil Wayne (Feat. Static Major) - Lollipop
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXYH5RphU8Y


Exasperation is the mother of invention.


Thursday, July 03, 2008
To Talk Or Not To Talk? 10:43 AM

Vaness and I had a catch up session yesterday.. Ate like tonnes of FAT FAT food and spent a bomb. Stupid coffee costs about half the price of my dinner!! and my memory is like seriously failing. I thought there was Haagen Daaz at Marina Square but it was actually Anderson's, I though the nice oreo milkshake i drank last time and was craving for was at Coffee Club but it was TCC. STM!! kill me.

When our brains were clogged up with good food and going into sleep mode, we decided to analyse one of the mysteries of life (even when we are stoned, we still cant help being so intellectual..) which is....



To Talk Or Not To Talk? (below are some random findings..)

  1. When meeting new people, we keep asking the same standard questions (eg. what's your name? which faculty are you from? which school are you from? etc) that it starts to feel like an interview)
  2. Not everyone will appreciate going throught the above mentioned interview and sometimes will not reciprocate with a perfunctory "what about you?" which could either be due to: They feel dumb asking the same thing you just did... OR they are just not interested in talking to you (how dare they!!??)
  3. We sometimes really crack our brains thinking of what to say to some unresponsive walls (!) that we get so tired and pissed off that we just give up talking (the duration of this bout of silence depends on how pissed of we are and whether we meet someone else who actually respond to us)
  4. We realised sometimes even we dont feel like talking and then feel pissed off when others keep wanting to talk to us and that could be how the unresponsive walls feel (hmmm...)
  5. We dont understand how people can stand awkward silence
  6. We sometimes keep ranting just for the sake of having something to say
  7. We prefer awkward silence at a table of 4 rather than 2 so that the fault is 1/4 ours (the silence is so unbearable we start doing mental calculations..)
  8. We can actually have a conversation about people not wanting to have a conversation (the power of good old friends!)

But there's nothing wrong with silence is there? Maybe before going into an awakward silence, we should just have an agreement that we both dont feel like talking, which turns the awkward silence into a comfortable silence. perfect solution! and if the both of us cant reach that agreement then we should just go into an argument which is certainly better than an awkward silence cause we can storm off and go into zi bi where we can have our own silence.

Ronan Keating - When You Say Nothing At All

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AuJrEBtmM1Q

Friends hear what you have to say. Best friends hear what you do not say.


Tuesday, July 01, 2008
In A Perfect World 10:58 PM

  1. The things I have to attend will seriously stop clashing with one another. (everyone will follow my schedule!!)
  2. When I am trying to set a meeting, everyone will agree to the first date suggested.
  3. Everyone's blogs will be updated everytime I check on them :)
  4. Taxi drivers are not tailgating, headlight flashing, reckless driving uncles.
  5. I will have all the lorry dimensions as of right now.
  6. I will not get a huge-ass splinter in my finger which loved my finger so much it refused to budge. (thanks junwen for the mini op!)
  7. All wood will be cut the way I want it. Magically.
  8. I will be able to meet rz, aud, char, angel, tracy, ch, syukri for badminton or at least for dinner.
  9. I will stop telling people that I will try to be there, then forgot to be there, then realised I cant be there and then be screwed up.
  10. I will spend more time with my brother and not snap at him.
  11. I will make an effort to not just "hmm" and "orh" to my parents and grandfather.
  12. I will STOP procrastinating.
  13. I will tell everyone I love that I love them :)
  14. I can meet up with whoever I want to when I want to and where I want to.
  15. NUS will be in the east.
  16. School will not start for the next 6 months.
  17. I wil not feel tired until bedtime.
  18. I will never have a sucky day.
  19. I will stop feeling that I should spend more time at home when I am outside and feel like going out when I am at home.
  20. I will be turning everything in this list into reality.





This appears a bit too self centred so... (some perfunctory statements..)



  1. There will be world peace.
  2. There will be no hunger and poverty.
  3. Ok... YOU will be happy. Happy?

Since I am daydreaming.. Might as well..

  1. I am Mrs Johnny Depp

Not really asking for too much, am I? (I am still in my perfect world, so the answer will obviously be no. :))

People always said that we should live our lives without caring what people think. Sounds good doesnt it. But when does the line get drawn? Can people live their lives without caring how they affect other people? I hate these people. But I envy them. Cause they are the truly happy ones.



St Trianians (random but nice show)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGLrbUEEV3E

Simple Plan - Perfect World
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WuaPaN6IfSc

Whenever you set out to do something, something else must be done first.
-One of Murphy's million and one laws

oh ya. In a perfect world, there wouldnt be any Murphy's laws.