I realised I haven been blogging all that much.
At least not posts that I would actually publish anyway.
I have been writing stuff that are either things that I don't want people to read (mwahahha) or thoughts that are not at all well refined or boring.
Bottomline - NO inspiration.
And I realised wordpress has this Post A Week 2011 thingy going at
http://dailypost.wordpress.com/They give you topics and all.
Awesome!
So today's topic is:
Describe the one who got away.
It could be a person, a thing, an idea, anything.
At first glance, I thought that the topic had to refer to
someone, but it doesn't!
That would be hardly interesting right? =P
Coincidentally, I've been thinking alot these days about the one part of my life that got away.
My uni life in fact.
Up till now, in my pri, sec and jc life,
there has always been something I could look back fondly and think to myself, 'hey, i did that'.
Maybe not so much in my pri school, but there was SJAB in AHS and 26/05 in TJC and even friends aside, I felt that I had taken away something from these periods, even though I can't exactly put a finger or name to it.
But now that I am almost halfway out my uni gates, I can't say I've done enough, seen enough... milked the last journey of my education enough.
Isn't it ironic that when I can actually start to choose what I want to study instead of what I have to, together with more freedom and less boundaries and stuff, I end up feeling more empty and lost?
Maybe it's true that Spore's education has been too rigid, I've been too protected and spoon fed that given the freedom that the real world offers, I can't seem to function right.
And then I think of Steve Jobs who dropped out of college cause he couldn't see the value of a college education and didn't want to waste his parents' money and Mark Zuckerberg who dropped out of Harvard, and I get this terrifying thought that I may have just spent the last 4 years of my life studying to realise that I don't really see the point of it at all. Even though I mugged a LOT harder in the past then I ever did in uni, I remember actually liking some of the things I was mugging for. The only things I could remember I enjoyed doing in uni had nothing whatsoever to do with studying at all.
Every semester is way too short, we have way too much to learn in way too little time.
I scrape by my tutorials week to week and rush to meet deadlines to reports, assignments and tests.
I don't have time to internalise stuff I was learning and mugging for exams which used to take weeks and even months have to be done in days.
Am I just finding excuses? Am I learning things too slowly?
To put it bluntly, I may have just spent my last 4 years and money "buying" a piece of certificate. Which can supposedly get me places.
Maybe one day I will appreciate the value of that paper.
But right now, I am just glad graduation's round the corner.