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Thursday, March 26, 2009
Paradise or nothingness? 8:43 PM

There was a talk on Faith and Globalisation by Tony Blair today. Didn't attend it but we sort of discussed it in class.

An interesting point brought up was the question if faith and religion were any different. Innately, I guess we all know that they must be different. But it's the kind of thing you don't normally think about making a clear distinction until you actually give it some thought. I agree that you don't have to be religious to be someone with faith. But I think you would need to have faith to be a religious person. This might seem obvious but I am sure someone out there would disagree somehow and probably in a way that's not apparent to me now.

Anyway, I guess that pretty much sums up my view on religion. Coming from a school where religion was actually part of the school cirriculum, I have been asked to convert numerous times and never have I ever really consider the option. I was even so appalled by these people who were trying to turn me into someone I can't see myself as that I totally condemn the very religion they were trying to "sell" (for the lack of a better word).

But fate/luck/a higher being/ God(?) intervened and I met people from that religion who spoke and shared about their religion rather than preach. I could feel their sincerity and where they were coming from. And I admit, for the first time in my life, I was pretty swayed.

And I was talking to someone who asked me if I am a devoted Buddhist and I concluded that I am probably more of a free thinker than anything. He then asked if I was looking for "the truth" to which I replied that I didn't really care. I mean it's pretty much pointless to look for something unless there is something to look for, an answer.

But anyhow, I now think that it is an interesting issue to think about, answer or not.

Through a bout of miscommunication sometime ago during lunch, a bunch of us ended up in a tense "discussion" about religion. ("Discussion"cause the only 2 people involved in the conversation are more about putting their foot down rather than exploring the issues. This is why I never considered converting before. People being all self important and superior and telling me what to do? Not the way I work.) One of them asked if we would deny our religion just to live i.e. If someone points a gun to your head and asked you if you were (insert your religion) and if you were, he would kill you. Would you?

The person who asked the question said she will.

2 of us (me included) wouldn't.

Another refused to answer.

I asked another friend this question and he said he wouldn't cause his religion taught him not to kill.

Which led me to think... Who is right? Obviously there is no answer but isnt it interesting?

Thou shalt not kill. If my friend allow the person to kill her for believing in her religion, what happens to this commandment? She has, in a way, taken her own life (which is condemned if I am not wrong) and allowed someone else to take her life and thus sin. But she did not lie and she accepted Christ completely.

At the end of the day, is anyone right? Is anyone wrong? Will we ever know? Who will be the judge?

Beyonce - Halo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZ0FhVZce2o&feature=related


question: why do you stop caring about something you care about? 8:35 PM

I know what's been bugging me.

Space.

Not the black, endless, UFO-and-I-don't-know-what-else-there-is kind of space.

But my space.

I am fine with people coming into my space. I can just save a corner for you and we'll be all fine and get on with our lives.

And if you don't come into my space, all the more I have no reason to complain. It doesn't matter to me and I don't care.

But you coming in and out of my space. Pace a little. Sit for a while. That bugs me. Quite a bit. I have to shift my stuff around. And yet there is no reason to leave a permanent space for you. That's quite irritating.

If you know what I mean.

Answer: Self preservation.


8:45 AM


Sometimes, pain engulfs me.
And I suffocate and drown.

Just the other day,
clouds filled the sky.
And strong wind blew.

I saw the sky move.




Did you?


Wednesday, March 11, 2009
it all amounts to nothing in the end 11:23 AM

I really appreciate all your help and words of encouragement.
Especially to Justin, Jiayan, Meiyun, Hanxi and Siew Chien. (:

Many words.
Many thoughts.
Maybe someday you will see them.

Evanescence - My Immortal
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idd_92ajjwY


Saturday, March 07, 2009
i want a test 12:17 AM

Monday, 2 March
CE 2164 Lecture:

Prof :Some students emailed me over the recess week and asked for the test to be postponed because they had to go back to their hometown and they said it wasn't fair for them for the test to be on this saturday.

*general protest*

*date changes from April to March to April to weekends to weekdays to Saturdays to Sundays and to weekdays...*

*45 minutes in fruitless discussion*

"We will have it in April"

Me: ?!?

Friday, 6 March
CE 2112 Lecture

*LT almost filled*

Prof: Is everyone here? Can someone count to see if everyone is here?Some students emailed me the past few days asking for the topics to be covered which I have mentioned in class, so it appears that they did not come for lectures and maybe they didn't know about the test. So let's postpone it.

*general protest*

*Prof engages in monologue, convincing himself to postpone the test*

"Yes we will postpone it, it's not fair to those to didn't turn up right? Then they will get zero.."

Us: We DON'T CARE. (less competition the better)

*more monologue*

Prof: We will have it next week. We will continue lecture now.

*more protest*

Prof: You all are already so old, why can't you all understand?

*resume lecture*

Me: ?!?

For once, students have to beg for a test. Stabbings and deaths have turned the world upside down.

On a side note, I hate people who patronise me. And who suck at it too (it's obvious when I stop midway and you don't even realised, I could be talking to myself for all I know). If you can't be bothered to know something about me, don't bother asking. If you asked, don't act all haughty and bored and totally ignore the fact that I replied your questions when I am done. I don't think I am that boring to not hold your attention for only a good 15 seconds or less. I didn't initiate the conversation and I certainly don't like patronising. I barely like socialising. So if you can't be bothered, please stay that way. (Sadly, I doubt you know who you are.)

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rgInHvW8Ic