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Totally overdue. More overdue stuff to come. Thanks to Mr Procrastinator. I started out really bloodly ambitious and wanted to name this post "101 Memories of the Thailand Trip". But as anyone can see, this is nowhere near #101. So I decided to scale it down to 50. Even then, I cant think of enough things to add. (Not that it wasnt fun! I just cant think of any right now. Sadness.) So there. It stops at 35. The Script - Breakeven
I have chanced upon blogs before that totally amazed me. Not by its content in the "wow, I totally agree!" OR "wow, I never thought of it this way before" but more of the"I cant believe you wrote all that" kind of way. I dont mean it in a derogatory fashion or with a higher-than-thou attitude but I am impressed that these people can literally list down everything they did in the day. Like almost EVERYTHING. I read one before where the person conscientiously noted down every lesson that she went through in school and some other stuff that I cant really remb. I can never ever get down to doing something like this; which is why my posts are rather random, with points that may not be coherent at all. (If not like writing essay leh!! Must plan... Get thesis, find motive, gather supporting evidence... Its just too much work. Fine. I am just lazy.) Anyhow, those detailed forms of blogging probably serve as interesting memories when we look back but... To each his own!
Anyway, I learned about this website in class today and the site summarised my Cambodia trip to this pretty thing:
It turned the random-ness of my previous post into a random jumble of keywords and TADA!! You get art.
Basically you just click on "Create", fit any text you want to the programme and it generates this workart for you! The words you used most often is supposed to appear the biggest (this doesnt seem to apply to mine though.. hmmm) and so on. Can even change to different pattern! Exciting lo!!
I like random stuff like this. (And I bet you do too! Yes.. I know you are eagerly pasting random articles into that website...)
Pink - Sober
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZszukTMzsk
I really do miss the quiet times when the days give way to darkness at 7pm.
Where there was nothing to do once the generator shuts off at 10pm .
And where the stars light up the sky in ways you can never imagine.
Where your wishes run out before the shooting stars do and you realise that life isnt as bad as it is made out to be.
Where you can lose yourself talking to people and not be interrupted by phone calls, smses, msn, emails, facebook...
Where you hear stories of hardship and struggles and then, love.
Where you learn that you may not be able to get along with the whole world but nothing stands in the way of mutual respect.
Where people go out of the way to help you.
Where bugs fall like rain and mozzie nets are our saviour.
Where cramped quarters give you comfort and solace.
Where it was ok to be alone to think and not appear anti-social.
Where you grow numb looking at the same things being sold at the Old Market, Russian Market, Central Market, New Market....
Where our guys lose out to aunties there when it comes to hard labour.
Where we are amazed by every innovation they use in construction and lament upon our useless education.
Where ice creams and crackers cost less than 20cents.
Where we could walk along a dam, ride on ox-carts, travel on a motor-cart, sleep on hammocks, harvest rice and feel small in fields you could lose yourself in.
Where our water supply got cut off one day and how disgusted we were to learn that it was because we somehow managed to work our way through 1000 litres of water in 3 days.
Where our group became a team.
Where lifestyles are so different and you wonder if any of us are truly happy.
Where things are so beautiful and you wonder how the world is going to be the day when places turn into cities, when fields give way to buildings and when nature loses to man (sidenote: this was the main reason why the antagonist in Hellboy 2 wanted to destroy mankind and I cant really blame him).
Where life was simple. When it was december 2008.
among some others which I cant remb now. It was an interesting way to know people better and even to know yourself better. (I was made to think about why I wanted to live forever when noone else does and I realised that I have a weird desire to want to live forever in this imperfect world rather than an eternity in a perfect heaven because the pain and suffering somehow draws me in. This probably doesnt make sense to anyone other than me.) This trip to Cambodia was in every possible way very different from my other trips and not only because the group has been the most bonded and most responsible bunch of people I have ever met and probably will meet. I can even go to say that it has been transformational, in ways which maybe I dont even know now, because I cant even put it into words till now. You know how people in movies always talk about how one person would changed their lives completely by changing the way they look at the world and I think I sort of suddenly what that means now. maybe its due to the overactive brain cells, I suddenly found life a bit pointless, kinda like I lost a focus in life (relax.. I am definitely intending to continue living). I mean, I know there's many things in life I should be grateful for (and I am at some point in time, when I remind myself, but doesnt this make it more logical rather than emotional) but I feel very insignificant in a way, like everything I do and I plan to do cannot and will never make a difference. But on the way to school the other day, I heard this song on radio (which I dont noe the title and have absolutely no way of finding out and I never heard of it again. weird) which reminded me that every action, no matter how small it seems, may affect someone in some way. And I realised I got to be the change I want to see in the world. And change things one at a time. Cliche but cliches became cliches for a good reason right? They are used so much because they are true. I dont really know where I am going with this, but if you somehow managed to plough through everything I just typed and somehow understand what the hell I was trying to say, we should catch up sometime. (: I dont know what happened, but my secondary school (sec3/4) clique has more or less lost touch with one another. WHY! I need to be more proactive in keeping contact and be more friendly. Seriously. ok. Random. Taylor Swift - Love StoryIt hasnt been too long since I last blogged (been only about 2 weeks though it feels strangely long ago) but there seemed to be so much I want to say and yet never got down to it. A gazillion thoughts will run through my head now and then; it has been this way since my trip to Cambodia. And now it dawned upon me why I enjoyed those long random conversations with Yan so much. Because they were different. Because I could say anything, be it something completely superfluous like gossip about people (hey... who doesnt love a little gossip =P) or something more serious like family issues and maybe even issues about life. I am not sure about others out there, but I don't usually have such conversations with anyone. It's just weird to be discussing such heavy stuff with any random person you know right?
Imagine...
*meet a friend on the bus*
me: hey!
friend: hey! how is school?
me: good... do you want to live forever?
friend: eh...
Then again, maybe this does happen, but I know that if I were in such a scenario where I was the said friend a month back, I will probably find the person asking me such a question extremely bizarre or something. I used to have friends who occasionally touched on topics more serious than gossip and less weird than the question above but somehow I always find myself shunning away from an intelligent conversation by commenting "wah so cheam leh..." and then change topic. I am not sure why, but my replies in conversations were always very impromtu and rarely do I stop to ponder too much. And when conversations steer in the way of becoming more serious and where I had to stop and think, I was afraid that I would appear stupid because I wasnt one of those people who had a smart answer to everything and anything.
But I have come to realise that often things which I thought to be obvious and blatant were in fact not so to others. And vice versa. And there was no shame in stopping to think. And no shame in acknowledging that someone else brought up a good point you never thought of before. In fact, people wont find you stupid but would be glad that they brought a fresh perspective to you (at least that's what I think but you cant be too stupid at the same time LA... haha)
I am basically just ranting but kinda have to get this all down in words.
And since then, I realised life can be quite interesting if you ask the right questions and more importantly, talk to the right people. There are some people where you can never get pass the superfluous, and its probably just me and not them.
Anyway, the whole a-lot-of-things-buzzing-through-my-head thingy started one night in Cambodia where I dont know how but a few of us gathered at the dining area and people starting asking random questions.
one more conversation with such topics and I swear I will smash something or kill someone (whichever is unluckier to be nearby).
I need to focus on more productive things.
my first and most resolute resolution of the year. (:
The Pussycat Dolls - I Dont Need A Man
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DW6RXICsNh8
really weird random things that I didnt plan for and wouldnt plan to do on a last day of the year anyway. But it was fun. kinda of have many thoughts running through my head that I cant quite sort out. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! Yellow - ColdplayIt's 2009!!!
Unbelievable how fast 2008 went by.
I wanted to post some New Year Resolutions, some reflections/ reminiscents of the year passed but I just didnt get down to it (lazy LAAA). But it's the first day of the year and I want to post something (really for the sake of posting something if you realised).
Spent the last day of the year:
