It takes a night to make it dawn.

Friday, October 24, 2008

I'm so tired of never fixing the pain 9:56 PM

My life, and everything in it is falling apart.
No one will understand.
No one will care.
And there is no one I want to talk to.

I am not in the best of moods.
Everything that can go wrong, has.
It hasn't been a good day, week, month or year.
And I can foresee it going only downhill from here.

I want to breakdown.
But I want to stay strong.

I just want to jump into the deepest of oceans and stay there.
In the peaceful, deafening silence of the sea.
I may not be able to breathe.
But I am suffocating here too.

I need to tell someone.
But I don't want to talk.

No one said life was easy.
But does it have to be so hard?

I know this sounds depressing.
But I will live.

Just don't ask me anything.
Because I really don't want to talk.

Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever. - Lance Armstrong

Give Me Some Love - James Blunt

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dz21xgNlyII

Thursday, October 23, 2008

people don't mean what they say 5:10 PM

When the lecturer says...

"Am I going too fast?"

He means...

"You all look really lost... Why can't you follow my train of thought? Am I really so much smarter than all of you?"

When the lecturer says...

"It doesn't matter."

He means...

"You are not really smart enough to understand and should just accept this as it is or I would need to spend a hell lot of time trying to explain it to you."

When the lecturer says...

"Don't worry."

He means...

"You will understand when you read up on it. (But if you still don't get it, then too bad)."

When the tutor says...

"This step *points somewhere* will NATURALLY leads to this *point elsewhere* which will NATURALLY give you this answer *points everywhere*"

He means...

"It is all natural to me. Sorry if you can't get it."

And when people say...

"Aiya.. Won't come out in exams one LA."

Chances are...

It will.

On a totally random note, witnesssed this incident today which I shall attempt to reiterate without judging.

I was on the A1 internal shuttle bus today at Sci Fac busstop when the bus was about to pull off. But it stoppped and this lady got onto the bus. It was apparent that the bus driver saw her in time and stopped the bus for her. The first thing she exclaimed when she got onto the bus was...

"You saw me coming and YET you wanted to drive off!!!"

And stomped to a seat muttering angitatedly.

The bus driver mumbled something in reply which I didnt catch but sent the woman into another state of frenzy.

"You should have used the mirror!! You would have seen me coming!!"

The bus driver resigned to his fate and could only vent his anger by zooming his way to the next stop.

She got off 2 stops later and without so much as a glance at the driver, said sacarstically...

"You should use the mirror sometimes."

Sidenote: Her tone was VERY annoying. (This is not a judgment, just to aid in visualisation =P)

To hell with not judging. WHAT A BI-ATCH.

Lucky - Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jT_iFCSTGko&feature=related

Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great people must, I think, have great sadness on Earth. - Fedor Dostoevsky

Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves. - Carl Jung

Thursday, October 09, 2008

abbamania! 1:01 AM

Abba craze seem to be brewing all around town. (Mamma mia has got to be the movie with the MOST contradictory reviews I have ever seen)

thanks to dotty for letting me be your replacment mom and catch abbamania at esplanade!

we both thought it was a musical about abba (was thinking why we were watching a musical about a band who had their own musical) *confused* but it turned out to be an abba concert! nah.. the band didnt come back from the graves (are they still around? no idea which era they are from...) its just a bunch of crazy enthusiasts performing their songs.. imitating right down to the oh-so-old-school outfits and oh-so-hilarious-step-right-step-left-step-right-and-from-the-top!-step left-step-right...-dance moves. really entertaining! not forgetting the ang mohs waving their feathery getai thingy and leaping to their feet everytime the songs get upbeat.

abba songs are sooo catchy!

plus its the first time I had to run to a concert! we were happily eating at MS before realising we were probably never going to make it in time and had to gobble down our food and ask for the bill and scramble towards esplanade all at once.

I know that people werent allowed into theatres once the concert starts but what I didnt know were the chimes/bells/alarms that they used as a warning!

we were on the escalators at 7.57pm and as soon as we got off, we joined a bunch of people running towards the theatre (or trotting along with the ever pratical heels) and practically threw the tickets at the ushers. and still got security check! (at this point, the security just opened the bag and if a bomb didnt flew out at him, he just closed it and passed it back)

all the time with the alarms going off like some state of emergency! super hilarious I tell you!

but we made it. (duh! if not I wouldnt sound so excited already)

fun!

plus I am meeting vaness EVERYDAY for dinners (lonely no more!) that we may soon get sick of seeing each other ON TOP of being sick of eating in school.

haha. why do I sound so bubbly at 1am?

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
-Mother Teresa

That's When I Love you - Aslyn
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LODnG8eE8ZE